you made me stronger

i wrote this article for INK, the official newsletter of UP IBA... i hope u will enjoy reading it. =p
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YOU* MADE ME STRONGER

September 23, 2005
9:58 PM

Dear Diary,
Hi! Long time, no see… It has been quite a while since I put you in the deepest part of my closet. Two months ago, all I could think about was put an end to everything. Back then, I never really thought that I could live a day without him. For one year and seven months, he WAS everything for me… My happiness, my sadness, my strength, my hope, my LIFE…
Suddenly, the ecstasy that I was feeling was put to an end. My heart was broken on the afternoon of July 8... I can vividly remember what happened that day and I even had nightmares about it. This day made me cry a river ‘til I felt numb deep inside.
However, like everything else, my depression came to an end. I guess the old saying that TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS is true. I can shout to the whole world that I HAVE MOVED ON… I HAVE FINALLY GOTTEN OVER HIM. And that world includes you, my dearest diary. That’s why after a long while, I am now writing on you.
I just want to share to you what I am feeling. It is like I have finally taken off a big weight from my shoulder. I have realized that he isn’t really that “perfect” guy that I thought he was. He is just someone who puts on a mask to impress everyone. But deep inside, he is a rude man that only a few people like me can see. He is not worth the attention or the affection that he gets from the people around him.
I guess my being busy with something else also helped. I did not have ample time to think about him or what he had done. My mind was preoccupied with my academic works and extra-curricular activities.
I do not feel anything anymore when I see him with his someone new. Although we are not friends, and I think we will never be, we are civil towards each other. For me, he is just someone whom I need to work with to pass my major subjects. JUST THAT… NOTHING MORE…
I want to extend my gratirude to him. I want to thank him for giving me the strength that I, myself, did not even thought I could have. There is really a reason for everything. God closed a door for me but he opened a window. I had opportunities in front of me after our break-up. I suppose he is just my bad luck (joke!).
It is now getting late. I need to sleep so that I can have full energy for tomorrow. Let me share to you the chorus of my favorite song for now:

“You made me stronger by breaking my heart
You ended my life and made a better one start
You thought me everything
From falling in love to letting go of a lie
Yes, you made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye”

Luv lots,
Rosey

*Fictional Character

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you know what's weird? 1st of all, i dont keep i diary... i really dont know if the above entry is valid. in addition, i don't what it's really like "moving on"... i haven't been in love... in short, barbero lang itong article n yn... =)

my first post...

It is my first time to create a blog for myself. I have always wanted to create one. However, I didn't have the guts to make one since I am not that good in expressing myself. Kung hindi pa dahil sa isa kong subject (BA 191: Information Resource Management), malamang wala pa rin akong blog.

Anyweiz, hindi na ako masyado maka-relate sa kay Ma'am. Late kasi akong dumating. Galing pa kasi ako sa PHAN para sa aking Psych 101. =p

Masaya rin palang mag-blog... At least, kahit papaano, pwede kong masabi kung ano ang nasa loob ko nang hindi nakakadagdag sa noise pollution sa paligid. Ang daldal ko pa naman... hehe... =p